Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Wow, it's been almost 2 months since I've posted here. I've been reading, but not really commenting, as I'm short on time usually, or only have one hand free to type.
Lennon's 10wks old, and the time has flown by. Things here are busy and good, although at times I still can't believe how hard parenting a live child can be! I also realize how incredibly lucky I am to have him, even when I'm going through the "hard" moments.
I do feel having him has been a bit healing of my grief for Nevan. The initial 2 weeks after his birth I was hugely emotional and really thinking of her a lot. And I do still think of her everyday, and wonder how life would be different if she were here, but I haven't been deeply sad for a while. Sad, yes, but no really terrible days like I'd have before. I'm hoping this is maybe a new phase of grief, remembering, holding her close, and moving forward. Her little brother is a little joy, and I know we're so lucky to have him with us.