Thursday, April 28, 2011

He's here

Lennon Christopher was born April 11, at 8:52 am by scheduled c-section. (that's him, sleeping on daddy's chest). It was unbelievable to hear his first cry, and sometimes I still have a hard time believing he's here and alive and doing well. I was pretty much an emotional wreck the first week and a half, part hormones and part missing his sister and all the what-if's.
I'm very happy and very sleep deprived. Mothering a live baby is hard. I knew it would be, but it's still a bit of a surprise. I thought I'd be so grateful to have a live baby (and I am) that nothing would phase me. We've had a bit of a rough time with breastfeeding, and Lennon ended up losing a lot of weight, which was frightening and stressful. We're supplementing now, and he's gaining, so hopefully things are on the right track.
It's really bittersweet, having him here, and missing Nevan. I thought he would look just like her, but he's completely his own person. (maybe they have the same nose).
Anyways, things are good here, baby boy's here safe and sound, for which I'm grateful, and I still miss his sister.